Snow-Koi

Dunno, might move to ~Baharii (https://www.deviantart.com/baharii) permantly. Maybe I shouldn't post this just yet cause I alway make bad/rash decisions when I'm not feeling like myself. Truthfully I'm terrified of what the future holds for me, and maybe somewhere deep back in my brain, changing things is my way of trying to stabilize my life. Something I have control over. I want to draw, and I feel the need to. I just can't pick up the pencil without loosing total confidence in my talent.

What a great way to begin a new year. I'm not depressed, I'm a mix between really pissed off and sad. If you have read my latest LJ entry (if you want to know my username there please note me) you'll understand. I've reached my limit of bulls**t I can take. This won't affect my uploads and art (just yet I suppose) in fact it makes me want to work even harder at it. But I do want to let you know there might be a point sometime on down the road where I won't be on for a while, maybe due to lack of computer or lack of internet..I have no idea. I don't feel sorry for myself, I should have gotten out years ago.  I was stupid to take even an ou

Happy New Years everybody! Here's to a safe and happy new year! I can't tell you all how much you mean to Me. Thanks for keeping my spirits up, even though this has been a tough year.  I really don't know what I'd do without  you all. To the old friends. You all rock! You have been with me through thick and thin. You have saved me from  going crazy quite a few times. I've known some of you for 5 years or more. (even some for 10 ) Hehe, time does fly by. Here's to the new friends too! I have grown very close to some of you and it amazes me how much love I actually do have to give. I adore you all like brothers and sisters. Here's to many